i can't see myself being a very good housewife.

I've been super busy lately, and when I'm not busy, I've been lazy as hell. This is pretty much a common theme in my life. The problem is that I haven't been working on what is actually really important for my future - grad school applications. It might be good to at least decide where I want to apply. It also might help if I let my professors know so they could write my recommendation letters.
I wish I was more sure of what I actually wanted to do with my life. Oh well.

I've been thinking a lot about what's been happening in the past year.
At first glance, I would say I've become a completely different person. But then I realize that maybe I've just finally begun to understand who I already was.
I think I underestimated the value of taking the time to get to know myself. I thought college was a waste of time. I felt like I was having no impact on the world... I wasn't helping anybody. But I think having this past year for myself was a more valuable experience than I could've imagined. I'll be a more productive member of society because at least I know who I am.

And I couldn't have done it if I had been in a relationship. Getting dumped by my fiancé last year was one of the best things that's ever happened to me. Seriously. When I tell people I used to be engaged but it didn't work out, they always seem to pity me. Oh Caro, I'm so sorry that you had to go through that. But I think I really needed that slap in the face to wake me up and get me going. Who knows if I ever would've discovered my sexuality otherwise. I don't even want to imagine what life would've been like I had married him. I can't see myself being a very good housewife.

Now I'm a free woman. The world is my oyster.
I just wish I knew what to do with it.

queeisure time.

What do I do in my queeisure time, you ask?
Why, I watch Tegan and Sara music videos, of course!
Nobody can rock the mullet like these ladies! *swoons*


Back in Your Head


The Con

pushing imaginary buttons.

At first I couldn't stand this video. Then I realized I couldn't stop watching it.




And then there's this gem...

Hey baby, wake up from your asleep. We have arrived onto the future, and the whole world is become...